My goal in life right now is to earn a Cintiq. It's something I've been wanting for years but never had the money to do so. I left my Animation program so that I could find work and earn money at minimum. It's been 2 years since and I'm still looking for work. My family can't help me either and if anything I need to help them.
With a Cintiq I can learn faster, experiment with color theory and finally develop finished artwork. It also feels natural to see where you are drawing. Cintiq is my ticket to the future and I can't afford the ferry ride.
I'm sick and tired of using paper and pencil. It's slow and requires too much time for iteration. I'm stuck creating a coloring book for myself because I'm waiting to go Digital. I'm learning anatomy, lines, and various fundamentals, but they can get pretty damn boring with limitations.
I have libraries of references, folders of types of art, focused my mindset at a professional setting, watched every behind the scene video game videos and seen developers talks about their game, subscribed to so many artists on my facebook and youtube. I'm super dedicated and motivated but my dream can't be fully realized.